Saturday, July 17, 2010

Day 185: Because I Said So

I always told myself I’d be the cool mom. The one that sneaks you a cookie when Dad isn’t looking. The kind of mom that would let you drive up the state just because “all your friends were doing it”. And while I have yet to become a mother, I am responsible for the care of three young boys. Wanna know what I caught myself saying to one boy today? You guessed it. “Because I said so.” Yikes. Dreams of being The Cool Mom? Dashed.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Day 181: Love and Stress

Today marks the 6 Month Mark of John's mission!! Only 18 more months to go! 3 more times of this. I can do that right? I look back at the last 6 months and I am amazed at how fast it really went... It kind of feels like he left like 2 months ago. Soooo maybe by the end of his mission it will feel like he only left like 8 months before? Who knows. Its all subjective, of course; depending on how sad and lonely I am. Sometimes it seems like it went by fast, sometimes it feels like I have forever left. Sometimes I have no doubts about being patient, and sometimes I freak out because it is SO FAR AWAYYYYYYYY. But ALL the time, I am filled with a feeling for him that can only be described as undying love. Call me cliche, and call me disgusting and mushy. But to call what I feel simply "love" is not enough. LOL. But moving on, I am proud to say that 6 months has passed, and he is doing extremely well. He is enjoying himself, loving the people, loving his companion, loving his roommates, tolerating the area, struggling with finding investigators, but overall, LOVING his mission. Oh, and loving ME. ;)
Stress has also come to hide in the corners of my mind. Stressed about school, about being able to afford it, the financial aide office's antics, moving out.... wah. Money is stressful. I hate money. I swear, if I had lots of it, I would be the happiest person ever. Does money buy happiness? No. But it definitely pays rent to happiness.

Someday, it will all be okay.