wow really?

So today is the day... It's the last day I'll get to see John. Can I do this for the next two years? I mean, sure we'll have letters and such. But man, I was lonely the first time around. It was hard. I'm not even kidding. Always wondering if they're okay, if there is anything I can do to make it easier. On me AND him. I wish there was some way that I could just make time go a LITTLE BIT faster. Make it a goal more in sight than just two birthdays and two Christmas' away. MAN. here we go again....

Can I do it? Even if I can't... I will.